as with all good things they come to an end.
me and mr married finished. not my choice either.he text me saying it was over.

i was all excited as i had plans to see him one thursday evening in may, when he txts me out of the blue saying he couldnt do it anymore. he felt too guilty and needed to concentrate on his family. he said he loved me and that why it had to end blah blah blah........
now i know a few people will be scoffing at this...they will think he said he loved me just to soften the blow but i'd like to say ( this will shock alot of people and especially you singleman) we never had sex. 6months of seeing each other and no sex. this is a fucking record for me i'm usually a 4 dates and bring it on type of girl.

so i really can say i believe him when he said what he felt for me....sex never got in the way. its no that i didnt want to or didnt try to initate things just that things were easier without. it kept things simpler. think we both knew that once the shagging started we'd be a lost cause and there would be no way out.

i hate to say this... im a bit of a tough cookie but he broke my heart.
i felt phsically sick and couldnt find a breath. it knocked all the air out of mt lungs just reading that message.
i was, however very classy about it. i accepted it for what it was and wished him well and told him never to contact me again....i then promptly disappeared into my room and cried for hours. i hate crying it so degrading and leaves you looking like shit not to mention weak.

so i did my best to pick myself up and move on, cried alot, nearly every day. i couldnt really talk to my friends because they didnt approve to start with and were just releived when it was over.
the trouble was everywhere i went reminded me of him.i tried to forget hima and move on.i even went on a date( what a fucking disaster, thats another story tho)

and just when i think ive forgotten about him and started to function agian he pops back into my life...........