aside from the excitment im tinged with sadness and longing.
mr married and i have been texting. this time of yeah reminds me of him, evenings in pubs, laughing a whole lot of very very goo kissing. just little sights and sounds transport me back to that deliriously happy moment in time, or tiny things make me think of him.
im still holding strong, i havent seen him, there have been many requests and i miss him so.
he always knows just what to say to make my cold and bitter heart melt. genuine thaw not just an imagined one. im good at convinsing myself of things.
ive tried for ages to convince myself that i dont feel what i think i feel but its just not working. does that mean its real and not imagined.??
