i feel sad. low. lost. bored.pathetic.

i picked pathetic because i really shouldnt fel like this. i miss him so much and its just a few crappy texts making me feel this way.
its just so final. no more little messages to cheer me up no funny quips to make me giggle.
my phone no longer bleeps and if it does its usually my mum! maybe im mourning the loss of my phone than him texting me???
i think the worst thing is i can look into my future and know that i'll never hear, see or feel him again.
i hope he feels like shit too. im a bitch i know but i do hope he hasnt just gone back to life like nothing ever happened.
this is worse than before because i knew he'd come back to me......this time he wont.